lshaeleea1959's Blog

I heard someone say that "strangers are friends you haven't met you." Sounds like that is your case. Good for you! Continue to guard your heart.

Be sure you be true to yourself and don't let no one talk you into a something with smooth. There was a reason for you to be looking for special things in a person. Maybe this guy will end up NOT being a friend. Maybe you need more friends so you can decide by what you want and not what you have been talked into.
I would like to hear what you think.

TXBOY, why don't you tell me something about yourself, it's so easy for people to hide behide their computers, what's your story , obviously, you think I should be concern with this person, what's your insight, from a man point of view, and just so you know I am alway's true to myself. I'm not perfect, but I do my best to treat people the way, I want them to treat me. with respect, kindness, honesty. I am aware their are alot of jerk's out here.... what's, the saying.... (a wolf in a sheep clothing). perhaps, I am putting my self out there, and I know jerks come in every shape and form, and back ground, I just can not allow my self to be afraid of everything that gose bump in the night. I look at it this way, it will truely be his lost, if he turn out to be a jerk!!! because that who he truely is, deep down and I won't be the only good friend he may lose..... (their is another saying, a lepard can't change his spot's)

txBoy I do not judge people, sometime love fine us even when were not looking for it. my friend is very nice, however he's going though somethings, right now and need his space. I just hope he knows I'll be here if he need me. thank's for your advice.

txBoy, I can not continue to talk to you, without first apologizing to you, i know you have know way of knowing this, but I call you a jerk, so the only way I can in good faith talk to you, I want to say I'm sorry for that, I'm just very protected of the people I care for, and I thought you were attacting my friend, I realized maybe you mite have just been trying to give me advice. although you had know ideal what I said about you,even before I heard from you, I wonder to myself how could I say such a thing about someone I didn't even know, but I fine myself sitting here wondering what it is, I may have done to someone I truely care about,to hurt them so badly that they won't even talk to me or tell me what I have done,am I too being miss judge the way I miss judge you?...perhaps! I am, anyway if you still feel like you have something to say, I will listen more carefully!! but if you decided not to thats ok too! I probabley wouldn't be that good of a conversationist anyway!! it's funny I was once told I was a great one. take care txBoy I'll check back to see if you are still around.

TXBoy thank's for getting back to and for accepting my apology,I know people break-up all time,it happens. but most of the time they still care about each other, as I do with this person, I miss everything about him, he's one of the funniest people I know, I think that what I miss the most is the laughter we share everyday, I would give anything to have that back, sorry I don't mean to bored you, I'm not usually this down, but it's been a rough week for me. thank's for listening.

TXBoy, I would like your opinion on one thing, you don't have to answer this question, it will be alright if you don't, but I want to asked you anyway,because I'm am very concern about it, here gose. I have been emailing my friend although he said we shouldn't, it's not because I don't care about how he feels, I'm just trying to let him know, I am not angry or mad at him for the decision that he made, I know you're probabley tired of hearing this but, he really is a great person, I just afraid if, I keep trying to tell him this he mite, disappear altogether, I don't want him to think, I am disrespecting his wishes, I just want him to know I understand and still care for him no matter what, I email him and try to tell him what he ment to me and how great I think he still is to me, but since he didn't response back I'm not sure he know's this,at least if I knew he recieved my email I would feel better, I don't want him walking around with guilt, feeling like he's not a good person, because he is. I just don't want to antagonized him with my concern for him,and at the same time, I want him to know everything would be alright if he would just contact me, at least I'll feel better knowing he's ok!!! after all you said, I should hold on to my friend if he was as nice as, I said he was, and he really is rather or not he knows it!!!

TXBoy, thank's for getting back, it's not that I need someone that bad,I just don't like things to end badly, and this stupid reunion co. is ruining everything for me, they keep sending him emails although it's the same email he thinks I'm doing it and I'm not, but I don't think he believed me when I tell him it's not my fault, I don't know if he think I am contacting other people or what, I try to tell him, to request that they stop sending it to him, well I don't think I have to worry about contacting him anymore because of this email thing he's closing his email altogether now, I just don't like to be blame for something I'm not doing, and I am a good friend, I guess I'm just one of those people who, try to give people the benefit of a doubt, and alway's try to see the good in them. thank's TXBoy for your adviced

I get to see her tomorrow - cant wait!
but I cant leave you alone. just get over that guy who turnd out to be jerk.
if you want to talk, i will try to listen.
have to go, i am at a freinds house and his brother wants us off the computer.
dont cry.

TXBoy, I hope you had a good visit today with your friend, see even with the rain come's a little sunshine, I'm glad it did for you, talk to you later and thank's again for everything.