I know it's supposed to be about your family and giving gifts and bringing joy to people I guess but I don't like it... I'm all for giving gifts but why this one day.. Can't we tell/show the people we care about them everyday?... Ok I'm not that religous or anything but lots of people aren't and they celebrate too... I feel bad, but I don't like Christmas, the crowds, the music, and the ugly rainbow lights... lol... I mean I love my family but is it wrong for me to be like "I 'm not buying gifts, Don't get me anything"?... because that's what I have been doing for the last couple years... It's so hard for me to be happy when it seems that the whole holiday lost REAL meaning... idk about other peoples holidays but around my family we open gifts and go our seprate ways to different familys... and sometimes we all eat together but more often then not someone is somewhere else... It feels like everyone is so caught up in the glitter and bright lights, they don't see the reason for the whole thing... so I gave up... IDK
The news is filled with shotings, roberies, murders, rapes, basically everything that I hate about the world. Why do we watch it? I think people just want to feel good about their own lives so they watch the misery of others.... I'm sick of this! What happened? What makes everyone so numb to this?... I can't help but cry everytime I turn on the T.V. I'm only 20 years old and I can't help but think our world is already down the drain. It just makes me so mad because I can't do anything about it. I have to power in this. I don't know how to fix this. We have all these resources to go to the moon and do all these amazing things, but we can't find a way to save ourselves?... perhaps I'm just a dreamer, maybe I'm a little crazy, but one day you will hear me...
